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Lucero -- GERALD J. LUCERO JR. August 4, 1976 - September 11, 1995On this, my child's anniversary eve, in the dread of dark, I toss and I turn, for it seems sadness is my only companion to my weary and restless heart. I get out of my bed so that maybe it will ease my fears as I've done so many times throughout these past few years. I tip toe so gently, not to wake those who lie peacefully, to protect them from my misery. I find a place where I can cry, where they won't hear my breathless sighs. I see a picture of my son in the darkened night, so I light a candle, hoping I can see the happiness and joy he once brought to my heart. My eyes begin to fill with tears, trying to recapture the memories of those cherished years. The candle begins swaying so effortlessly and his eyes begin to speak to me as they did when he was alive, and I wonder what he's trying to say to me. Suddenly, there's a silent hush, I quickly wipe away may tears and instantly it feels as though he's vanishing away all of my dreaded fears. The burning candle begins to warm my soul even with that little glow. He's saying to me how he loves me so, telling me,"Mom, there's so much I want for you to know. Most of all that I've never let go, I am with you constantly, so please don't rush to be with me. Live for me so that I can see again the woman you used to be. I'm right here beside you to proudly see the things I know you can and will achieve. You have a life, so live it, not only for me, but for those who are asleep who need you desperately. Promise me you'll do your best and let what is to be, become reality. Now go to bed and sleep peacefully and when you wake, Mom, don't cry for me, I'll be holding you tenderly on this, the morning of my anniversary." What a precious gift this child of mine gave to me while all of you were sleeping so peacefully.My Love Is With You Today And Always, Love Mom
        Published on: Fri September 11, 1998